This suffering.

I'm getting all emo-ish these past few days. haih, I just don't know why. I think I'm missing everything. I miss my happiness and my life. but most of all, I miss him.

I know I have to be strong. but I'm weak, very. I tried, but I failed. i've got nothing to do but cry. I tried acting and pretend that I'm alright like I've got over everything. but I can't do it anymore. I can't go fake the truth like I did before. I have to stop pretending.

Life is unfair. never will. stop dreaming. like in hell it will. I've always reminded myself that I've got my friends to stand by me and help me go through this shits. but what if, hmm I lose them. I'm scared. I would do anything just to get me wonderful life back.

Friends,
please dont leave me like he did.

He, who makes me smile.

Ended up with, leaving me all confused.

I do love him very much.

never expected this to happen,

never thought those days would come to an end.